My Feelings about Fangirling

Do you know Super Junior?

You MUST know them, if you still don’t know them, OH MY GOD! Where do you live?

I’m an ELF. Or EverLasting Friend. It’s an official name for Super Junior’s Fans. My fandom color is sapphire blue. Yea. I’m the one of those sapphire blue. It's almost 3 years I'm being an ELF :)

I know some of you dislike Super Junior. Some of you judge them the wrong way. Some of you judge ELF. Some of you insulted both. I didn’t say that it’s wrong. Everyone have the right to like or dislike someone or something. I’m in love with Super Junior and you don’t? So what? I’m not gonna forced you to love them like the way I did. If you hate them, just hate! But you have to hate in the right way. You can say hate in ‘Haters Group’. Not in the ‘Fans Group’ like I saw nowadays.

Today is the April fool day. And through his twitter, Super Junior’s leader Leeteuk gave his phone number to us, to ELF! Some of ELFs got a lucky chance because Leeteuk had hang up some calls! Tell me, which idol did the same way like our leader did? ELFs got a crazy day today. Even my twitter friend also had a little talk with Leeteuk! OMG!

In the end of April. We, Indonesian ELF, will have a Super Junior concert called Super Show 4 in Jakarta. Everybody got excited of that. Except me.

Why?

Because in April, I will have a National Exam. I told you this is my last year on high school. Although SS4 will be held about the end of April, I’m sure I can’t watch it. I must prepare myself to college test. Also, I didn’t come from a rich family, just an average family. And for me, spend Rp.1000.0000 or $100 just for watching concert is too much. That’s not included the transportation and a place to stay at night. And, my parents do not really like with my fans activities. They said that I was too obsessed. And, even I haven’t told them there is Super Junior concert, I’m sure they won’t let me to watch it. Don't get me wrong, but I have some friends with the same problem with me, 'parents problem'. But they fought with it. Sadly, I'm not that kind of person. If my parents said this, I just follow what it said. No matter what.

You know what? I had a feel that I’m really regret for know Super Junior. Why I’m so in love with them? Maybe you don’t know and don’t believe with it, but I’m really bound my heart with them. This feeling is real! I never had this kind of feel before. I’m not saying this as a little girl who had a madness with their idol! I’m 17! And many ELF is older than me and said the same! Is it too much when I started about to cry? I cry when Super Junior had a hard time. I cry when my ELFs friend can fangirling and I can't. I strangely keep crying and crying.

Am I failed ELF?

I can’t watch their concert... am I failed fans?

I have a friend. She is an ELF. I usually call her Onnie, that’s mean older sister in Korean. She is my inspiration ELF. She is the most pure ELF I have ever seen. I already told her that I can’t watching SS4 concert, with the reason in it. I thought she would say ‘ah... I’m sorry to hear that’ or something. But she replied like this

“ it must be hard. Dont force urself overly ss4 dear. Yeah you'd better obey ur parent.”

OMG! I know that was a simple answer, but it was help me to survive in ELF so much!

So in the end, I would like to say thanks for ELF. My big and kind family. Thanks for support me. I will stay in ELFs line, although I can't really DO the fans must do. I'm sorry and thank you so much.